15th June 2018
Feeling the heavy weight - and simultaneous liberation - of learning to rely 100% on MY thoughts and feelings and MY knowledge and awareness, solely, to form my opinions and stand by them.
I've spent my life looking to others to guide me; others to tell me what they think of certain people / concepts / agendas, so that I may adopt their slant and call it my own - too scared to take the responsibility of choosing for myself and standing in the fire.
Always looking for another to be the informed one; another to carry the labour of making decisions and conclusions. And for me to just skim off the cream and say "I agree".
At this beautiful coming-of-age (39), I'm finally taking responsibility for myself...
Severing all forms of authority as my guides and taking the heavy weight of these tasks on my own shoulders.
And with this heavy weight comes liberation and celebration... a happy flutter in my heart knowing that - finally, FINALLY - I am trusting me.
At last, I am valuing Me enough to give credit to what I think and feel and trust my own integrity.
And I may fck up! And that's ok too 😊 I'm choosing that it's ok to have an opinion, state it, and even stand by it and then later want to change it. It's ok!
So, today I am celebrating this stepping stone of learning to trust myself and claim more fully my power.
Knowing deeply how interconnected we all are and that my growth and empowerment will ripple out and also gift empowerment to those around me 🙏🏼💖