The Power of Expressing Emotion

21st March 2018

Wild Woman Typing!

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This post describes painful emotions.... if you are sensitive to reading about those, please skip this post.

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I have just shifted some BIG energy and the life-force coursing through my veins is calling me to write...to share how incredibly POWERFUL this work is!! πŸ’ͺ

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I've been noticing recently an unhealthy attachment to someone in my life... I feel myself craving them, their attention, wanting to pull them nearer, feeling disappointed when they are far, even though we don't have an active relationship.

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I don't like how that feels because it takes away my ability to feel centred and to be an empowered individual.

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My power is lost to this person (I subconsciously give it away) - even though they do not ask for it. In this dynamic, I am a victim; merciless to their actions. This is why I label the behaviour "unhealthy".

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2 days ago I set the intention to dig deeper into this root cause and scheduled a call with a close friend to help me process the pieces I can't yet see.

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I set the intention to find out... What is causing my craving? Why am I giving this person so much importance (aka power) in my life? What do I feel they give me? What do they represent?

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Our call isn't until next week, but already the friend and I have started sharing observations with each other around what we think might be going on for me.

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Today, as I was sharing some insights in a voicemail, a flood of emotion suddenly hit me... and I had 2 choices...

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1) I could prioritise the voicemail I was trying to say and force myself to talk through the emotion;

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2) or I could pause... let the voicemail record my silence, feel the awkwardness of doing that and - in doing so - allow myself to FEEL what was rising in me.

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I chose option 2 😊

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Tears came to my eyes and I sat with the awkwardness of still being recorded on the voicemail. As the intensity of my emotion lessened, I found a few words but my voice was broken: there was no hiding my experience. I allowed my voice to tremble, to quieten, to be soft and for big spaces to appear between my words.

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I signed off the voicemail and went into the room in my house where I feel most safe. I knew exactly what I had to do.

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This emotion was ready to come up and out: ready to be released from my being.

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As I prepared to use the 7 tools we learn in ISTA to facilitate this emotion to rise, I set the pre-release intention we are encouraged to always use before processing:

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"I am going to optimal level of being, for the purposes of releasing and expressing my emotional body. I intend to bear witness and let go of what no longer serves me. I intend not to harm myself, anything or anyone. And the space I vibrate open will be filled with love, ease and resolution."

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Before I had even finished these words, sobs started to rise through my body and I allowed them to run through me - up and out...

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To let emotion OUT, I believe, is one of the healthiest things we can do.

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I raised my arms up and open in the grief-release position and sobbed for what felt like ever.

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Huge wails of sound released through my mouth and I became self-conscious and, before I even realised, I quietened the sound.

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So, I let myself wail again - this time LOUD and without suppressing!

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This emotion wanted to come OUT and suppressing our sound is suppressing the energy and keeping it IN. I wasn't about to do that...

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So, I walied loud, over and over again as the tears ran down my face and my body convulsed as the energy moved through me. I allowed it all.

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Then anger came! Oh my God, I was angry!!! So, the ISTA pillow-bashing tool was next to facilitate releasing this powerful force...

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Then pillow-screaming, hand-screaming, more pillow-bashing, then pillow-thrusting, more pillow-screaming, and in amongst all this, many tears and wailing sounds came.

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Eventually, about 20-25 minutes later, the energy in me quietened and I laid down on my back to allow my body to integrate this energy-release. To allow it to adjust to what had been released and the space in me that had now been created.

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I felt at peace.

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I felt FREE.

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I have no idea what it was I was shifting: what I was letting go of...and I don't need to know....it doesn't matter. All that matters is that it rose up to be released and I released it.

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It's out now.... It's left my body...

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🌟 And I feel amazing!!! 🌟

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I feel ON FIRE!!! πŸ”₯

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The life-force is coursing through me and I feel ALIVE!!! πŸŽ‰πŸŽ‰

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I am so deeply grateful to ISTA for teaching me that expressing emotions is HEALTHY and - even - necessary for a balanced, fulfilled life.

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To FEEL is HUMAN!!!

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And it is so, so welcome πŸ™πŸ’–

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As for digging deeper into the root cause of my unhealthy attachment, I got some great insights during that voicemail I left my friend.

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We still have our call next week and will try to fully understand what in my past is playing out through this dynamic...what this person represents for me or triggers in me...

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And emotion may rise...in fact, its almost CERTAIN to do so!!!

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And I will trust my friend to "hold space" whilst I allow myself to experience that emotion and let it rise up and OUT.

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I suppressed emotions for so, so many years of my life. I swallowed down pain, stifled tears, put on a brave face and carried on - like so many of us do.

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But no more.

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It's not healthy for our bodies to push down all that emotion, it doesn't go away - it just accumulates and festers - and some even believe it causes cancer and other illnesses... πŸ˜₯

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If you also push down your emotions - PLEASE - let this post inspire you to change. Let a spark of desire ignite to start FEELING and ALLOWING your emotions to RISE up and OUT πŸ’–

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And... if you want a safe space and support to learn to how to do this... from this May I will be trained to teach the ISTA emotional release tools. I will be looking for people to teach who are ready to learn to start feeling and honouring the emotions that rise in them. PM me if you're interested in working with me πŸ’žβ€οΈπŸ’ž

Empowered Healing​